Now this isn't the post I had planned for today, but I have something to say. Today has been a bit of an emotional roller coaster ride. I know I'm not very personal over here. If you knew me in real life, you'd know that is in fact how I am in person- a sort of pseudo-personal. I'm the girl who listens to others problems, provides a shoulder to cry on, and tries to help out. I don't often share my own problems, or show emotion to anyone but family and Anthony. Even in these cases, the emotion is often times false- I'll show anger toward Anthony for an issue in our relationship, when really I'm upset about something else entirely.
Now, I've never frowned upon showing emotion. I have worked in crisis intervention and suicide prevention as well as with certain populations in tough situations which showing emotion is understood, encouraged, and often expected. When I was in training for crisis intervention work, we spent a good deal of time identifying feeling words. Can you think of how many words their are to describe negative emotion? Hurt, disappointed, betrayed, sad, uneasy, frustrated, upset, and so many more. It can be a challenge to simply identify what it is you're feeling. Then admitting it? That takes strength. I have such a problem showing emotion, that I have several stress related chronic health conditions that let me know I'm ignoring my emotional state.
Over the year's I've found that most people don't cry because they're weak. They cry because they've simply been strong for too long.
Today my wellness tip is to allow yourself to feel. Allow anger, hurt, and pain. But allow intense happiness, joy, and excitement, too. Accept where you are in this moment, and accept that you may need a minute, a hour, or a day to bring yourself to a point where this can take place.. Take time, and accept you.
What's your go to fix for a long day?