Saturday, February 16, 2013

The Days It Just Doesn't Happen

Well hey there. Did you miss me? It's been one of those weeks. I've fallen behind in just about everything I have to do. I have so many posts just about done to share with you all (including some pretty awesome new products and shops!) coming oh so very soon. But for now, I'm taking just a few more minutes to breathe before the weight of my to do list crushes me.

[Photo from one our our last we-have-more-to-do-than-hours-in-the-day times. Drink local!]

It's just one of those times. I really don't have much more to do than usual, but it sure feels like a hell of a lot. I've been visiting the doctors quite a bit and have a few posts to share about all that jazz. Then there is the usual ebb and flow of class work, which happens to be in a hurricane phase, and the planning for what (big) things are to come. But then there's the stress of those life decision things. You know, those I could go left or right but either choice leaves a little behind. And I've never been one to leave anything behind. 

To add to the mess, I have always been the "do it all" type. It has never been enough to do just what needs to be done, or just what is expected. I had to do more, help more, be more. Which means I can (quite usually) end up taking on too much. Recently, I've been trying to be just a little more realistic, which meant saying no to some of the extras I usually can be counted on to help with. This has been more of a heartbreak than I could have ever imagined. I have acknowledge the need to take care of myself, Dozer, my relationships, and my obligations right now, but I never imagined how hard that would be. 

Sure, saying no to fostering a few more puppies means I get to catch up on some much needed sleep, but it also means that those puppies are sleeping in a shelter tonight instead of a home. Saying I can't make a meeting a nonprofit could mean problems for the program, but even more means extra work for everyone else. Trying to whittle down the to do list means telling people I'm not ready yet, I'm running behind, and things won't be done when they should have been. But mostly this means I'm letting someone down, and I'm not meeting the standards they have set for me or the even higher standards I have set for myself. 

Thankfully(?) Anthony and I are in the same boat, and we're here frequently enough that we're starting to get it down. Take care of yourself, take care of each other, don't forget to keep the dog alive, then kick butt and take names. For now, life just isn't happening how either of us would like it to be, and that really sucks. So here they are- here come the late nights, early mornings, crash into bed with nothing left days, and I'm not ready. But that's life and it's not slowing down for  me or anyone else. Everyone's got twenty four hours to their day, we're going to make them count. 

What are you doing this weekend? And how do you take care of yourself on the days where life just isn't happening for you?

1 comment:

  1. Putting a time factor on my to-do list really helps put it in perspective. If I have to make phone calls and know it will be 1/2 to 45 to get them all done. While my wash is washing. Paper work may need an hour. I set a realistic goal based on these times with enough of a break. Everyone needs a quiting time when you just leave it for the next day. Work hard play hard. Reward yourself for crossing even the littlest of projects off the list